Life is So Short

Yesterday I got a harsh look at reality at work. I work in the most sensitive place a person could ever work. The Cancer Center at Northwestern Hospital. Now my job is to be pleasant and polite to the patients. Which I have been doing. But we see soo many patients that come in very sick, ill, and on their last breath. Its hard. But what made it even harder is when a patient knows they are about to die.

So yesterday one of my favorite patients came in and he was very happy like always. After he seen the doctor, he came to me and just gave me the biggest hug someone could ever recieve. I asked him what was wrong. He just cried and told me how much he appreciated me and how thankful he was to have met someone like me. He stated that I was truly someone special and that he would never forget me. Then he proceeded to take a piece of candy and told me that was he last one. It touched me. I gave him my number and took his as well. As he turned to walk away from me I just sat down and cried. I knew at that moment that it was time for him to go over to his everlasting home. I then realized that you can't take life for granted its truly a precious "moment". Dying and how I want to die has been on my mind lately. I just thought I should share my feelings with my readers about getting in touch with the people you have lost such as family, friends, coworkers.."associates" anybody. One day your here the next minute you are gone. Think about that

The Reality is..You Live to Die

Angel B.

Just Thinking

I have been planning to have another baby. WHHOOOO HOOO!! Lol. So I have been going to all these different website to find out how I can concieve quickly. I have been so excited these past couple of months with my fiance as we try to have this baby, and yesterday I went nuts. My nerves were so shocked from work and being stressed out about planning one, that I went off. I mean I flipped. I went from just sitting in my bed to jumping out of it screaming. Maybe its just my hormones. So I know you wondering what happenend right? Well, the first incident was my fiance had put our daughter in the tub and when it was time to get her hair wash. He went into the bathroom making this loud noise, which in turn triggered her to started crying really loud, like in a screaming tone. So I get up and confront both of them about the noise and why it happened. So I ended up making my Hubby mad and washing the baby hair.. I really didnt want to do either but I did. But thats not the end of it.

The second incident happened very quickly. Lol. I was sitting in the bed watching the BET Awards show. Then My Love wanted to brush the baby teeth because she had little accident where her tooth in the front is loose. So he asked his sister to get the baby some water and she went and got this big glass, and filled it up. So my little bundle of joy drinks a little sip from the glass and then the glass was to heavy for her little hands and she ends up throwing it backwards where I was sitting. It felt like I was swimming in a pool of water. Lol. So I jumped up furious but not at her. Mad at the situation. So as Jerry (My Hubby) was putting new sheets on the bed I stated very angry. "I'm not having anymore Kids. I'm going to stop taking my vitamins and stop trying as well". He just looked at me. I could tell he was angry and upset that I said that. So then very calm he asked " why not bay". I told him my nerves was shocked. But you know what I was just insane thats all. I really regret that now and I really do want to have another baby. But this goes to show people. You can't just say things because your angry. You can really hurt someone feelings. I hope this Blog open some readers eyes.

Love your Life. Its a Precious Moment.

Angel B.

The Life of A Three Year Old!!

Now I must blog about my daughter, because I think she is one of the most amazing people on this earth. This little human being has so much energy, and talent it blows me away. Have anyone just sat down with a little one and just talked to them and hear what they have to say. For example my daughter came to me and said " Momma I wanna some food" I asked her " what kind of food do you want" she looked at me very distraught and she then said " you know mama the kind that swim in water". So then I looked at her very strange and said " are you talking about some fried fish". She said " yeah Momma thats it". I thought that was soo adorable. Why? Maybe because I'm a first time mom and we could get a little crazy at some points. But, I think that it's some thing in the food that makes these little minds so Intelligent at a young age. It's up to us parents to keep them that way. How? In this day in age it's very hard, but it can be done. Being a parent is a very demanding job and I love it. Call me crazy non-parents. But I do. When my "baby" come home from school, I be just as excited as she is to tell me all about it. My ears be open, eyes are bucked, my heart is racing. Its a great feeling. So when I get off work today, I will be expecting to hear a fantastic story about how crazy her tiny life is. But whats really more insane is, I get so upset when I dont hear one. Talk about insanity.Lol. I Love my little bundle of joy.

Life is Life..Live It

Angel B.

A Little About Me

I am at work right now so you will have to excuse the rush. I am 23 year old, woman, established in my mind. Well let me say doing alright for myself. Born on a cold, but springful day in April of 85. I have traveled to alot of places in my very "young" life. Been to such places as Canada, Puerto Rico, Louisiana (College), Michigan (family), Indiana, Wiscousin, Ohio, Phily (love that city), Florida (childhood memories) and other places. Now thats what you call Blogging right? Just try to name all the states. Lol. I'm a mother of 1, a wonderful, energetic, talented diva. Autumn is her name she is 3 years of age and in school. " Have to start them out very young". I just wanted to put this blog up as my first one because I want the readers to know who I am. I blog off crazy things like... Drama..Life...Reality..Dreams.. Things I see.. Anything. Please come in a make yourself comfortable with my writings and speak how you feel about them. Ask me questions and give me Ideas. Thanks for stopping through.

Angel B.