The Pain!

It has happened. Today was the day that the Lord has called my Papa home. He will be missed and loved even in his other life. I will make sure that my daughter continue to keep those memories of him, because he was truly one of God's servants. He was soooo generous, and giving. I wondered why did he give soo much. I finally found out that it was because God told him to do so. I want to be exactly like him, and grow and give just like him. He will be truley missed. I love you G -Daddy..

Your Angel Rennie...

Letting Go and Letting God...

So last night Jerry and I decided to let go and let God. We are going to go our seperate ways, and its a very tough decision. I have always told myself that I would never just stay for the sake of the children and I kinda felt like it was going to that point. I love that man with all my heart and thats why I have to let go. I felt like I couldn't trust him with anything. I mean he would tell me something and Immediately I would think that it was a lie. How can I live and Love unconditionally with those kind of thoughts. So we are looking for him a new place and I am moving in with my Mom. All of this by March. I told him that I am still here for him and that maybe since we won't be living together that we can go back to those days that we first met and I was pregnant and have fun again. This way we can see if being with each other is what we want. He will be able to do what he wants and I won't have to worry about what he is doing. As well as me. I told him I will help with his bills if he needs the help, just to call me up and let me know. So we will see how this works out. Just have to rebuild what we have lost. And yes Autumn will be fine. Lol.