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Lately I have been hanging with many of my friedns and it feels great. I know your probably wondering like is she for real who doesn't hang with there friends. Well me. I have adapted to staying at home and chilling with the family. But. Now every weekend it seems as if I'm hanging with someone in my past or present. Its just a wonderful feeling. To know that someone is always there. Jerry kept telling me you have friends you just act like you don't want to be bothered. So I took his advice and now I'm having the time of my life. I have learned how to balance my life at home, work, and my friends. I talk to most of them almost everyday. In some form, either text, phone call or email. Just wanted to update you guys on my mood and life.

Real Friends are there forever..

Angel B.

I'm Ready

I am so ready to make a move already. I want to go far away and start all over. I mean start all over. I need a fresh life, a fresh start, everything. I want a house with a big yard for my daughter. I want a basement and a attic. I want security. I think if I make this move in the future I will have a stressfree life. Lol. Who knows? It's like everything here is very stressful. I worry about so much and I can't seem to let go of the past. I need to let go of everything and move forward. If this means letting go of everything in my present so be it. My life and future is more important than worrying about what some think or has done to me. So I'm ready, and it's time.


Ready as I ever Be..

Angel B.

Things are looking Upward

Good news has been rolling into my household lately. I may get this promotion after all, and Jerry has been on quite a few interviews. This job that I am trying to get, starting calling my references yesterday and everyone are being very positive. I pray that they give me this position. Lord knows I need it. The place that I work now is so overwhelming, and unorganized. Jerry's interviews has been going extremely well. This pizza place looks like it fell through, and this ADT security position really likes him as well. He said they wanted him to work in the corporate building. Fabulous. It wasn't even for the position that he applied for. She told him that she liked the way he dress. So for me it will be a better raise and for him, no Military, and more income. Hip Hip Hooray Lol. The baby wants to get into gymnastics and when things (money) get right, then I will put her in a class. Life can only get better.

There is no need to look down, look up to a brighter future.

Angel B.

The Importance Of Family

I got this letter in the mail the other day and it was from my Auntie Elise on my fathers side. The letter was basically talking about how there family reunion went in Atlanta, and how unfortunately some people were not able to make it. Of course I wasn't there. But I was thinking to myself how could I be unfortunate, if they never really made an attempt to know me. I felt as if I didn't really miss anything. When I was a child I was a little close to them, but as I grew older, I matured and moved on. I would sometimes call them and it was like speaking to them for the first time. Why did it have to be that way? So now that I am older, it seems as if my father as dropped off the face of the earth. I talk to him every blue moon and its briefly. For example the last time I spoke with him was to tell me about the reunion 3 days before the money was due to actually go. Now how do you expect for me to come, and do you even think that he offered to give me any money to try to get me there. It was just like call your auntie and get the info if you make it you make it and if you don't then you don't. It was the same for my Grandmas' funeral he called to tell me she passed and he seemed as if he really wanted me there and when my mom "hustled" up the money, He asked me if I was going to have a car. I told him no. Then he says "well why didn't she get you a car". I told him the same reason why you didn't. Sometimes I feel as if he is surreal. My mom has done all that she can for me and still doing. She has always taught me to try to get to know them. But how? The last family reunion I went to my Great Aunts didn't even know I existed. I was getting responses like " I didn't know Robert had another child". Like I'm a sinful child or something. I felt so rejected. I only no my mother side of the family.Jerry and I was talking last week about you always have that one person you can count on and that person is my mom. If she was to past I think that I would die. She has played a major role in my life. I want to be the same with my daughter. I never really had that sister or brother that I could run to and tell my secrets to. So I have adjusted myself to keeping them in. Maybe that's why I would get so angry at times. I thank God everyday for sending me someone who I know is responsible enough to take care of his kids. Jerry is a wonderful father. I wish my father was like him. It has been a year since I have seen my sister and oldest brother, but its been 8 years since I seen my middle brother. I pray that we will come closer and learn one another, but at this point I found that, being apart is a part of our every day life. I think that I have bounced back into this world very well. My mother has always been my inspiration and she will forever be my hero.

Its not how hard you fall, its how high you bounce...Unknown

Angel B

Big Things Poppin Literally!!

I'm so ready to do this, like right now!! I have been looking to relocate out of Chicago, this city is to expensive for my blood. So I have been looking for places in Las Vegas and in Atlanta. I sent my resume to I don't know how many jobs, and I have looked and a trillion places. I am just waiting for that call back "when are you available to come down for an interview", RIGHT NOW will be my response.Lol. I told my boyfriend to be looking as well. I'm so excited. I know this will be a hard transition but it's the right transition. I am so tired of struggling because the Gas is to high, or rent is to much, lets not forget child care. They don't pay me enough for this. Sales tax is rising all this because of some stupid olympics. I told my self that if I get a call back soon and get hired that I will break my lease and move as soon as possible. I need to explore and provide better for my family, and Chicago isn't the place for me to do that.

Live beyond the Norm.

Angel B.