The Importance Of Family

I got this letter in the mail the other day and it was from my Auntie Elise on my fathers side. The letter was basically talking about how there family reunion went in Atlanta, and how unfortunately some people were not able to make it. Of course I wasn't there. But I was thinking to myself how could I be unfortunate, if they never really made an attempt to know me. I felt as if I didn't really miss anything. When I was a child I was a little close to them, but as I grew older, I matured and moved on. I would sometimes call them and it was like speaking to them for the first time. Why did it have to be that way? So now that I am older, it seems as if my father as dropped off the face of the earth. I talk to him every blue moon and its briefly. For example the last time I spoke with him was to tell me about the reunion 3 days before the money was due to actually go. Now how do you expect for me to come, and do you even think that he offered to give me any money to try to get me there. It was just like call your auntie and get the info if you make it you make it and if you don't then you don't. It was the same for my Grandmas' funeral he called to tell me she passed and he seemed as if he really wanted me there and when my mom "hustled" up the money, He asked me if I was going to have a car. I told him no. Then he says "well why didn't she get you a car". I told him the same reason why you didn't. Sometimes I feel as if he is surreal. My mom has done all that she can for me and still doing. She has always taught me to try to get to know them. But how? The last family reunion I went to my Great Aunts didn't even know I existed. I was getting responses like " I didn't know Robert had another child". Like I'm a sinful child or something. I felt so rejected. I only no my mother side of the family.Jerry and I was talking last week about you always have that one person you can count on and that person is my mom. If she was to past I think that I would die. She has played a major role in my life. I want to be the same with my daughter. I never really had that sister or brother that I could run to and tell my secrets to. So I have adjusted myself to keeping them in. Maybe that's why I would get so angry at times. I thank God everyday for sending me someone who I know is responsible enough to take care of his kids. Jerry is a wonderful father. I wish my father was like him. It has been a year since I have seen my sister and oldest brother, but its been 8 years since I seen my middle brother. I pray that we will come closer and learn one another, but at this point I found that, being apart is a part of our every day life. I think that I have bounced back into this world very well. My mother has always been my inspiration and she will forever be my hero.

Its not how hard you fall, its how high you bounce...Unknown

Angel B