I have been thinking about so much stuff lately, like family, life, where I am headed. So to begin I want to talk about family. I have never really know the father side of my family and I would like to get to know them. Its like every time I go around them I feel like an outcast. I feel embarrassed because half of them dont know that I exist. I dont know my brothers and sister like I should and is painful. I have always felt like my father loved them more them me. I will always feel that way for the simple fact he was never really there me for like he was for them. I havent talked to my middle brother in eight years now. I sent him pictures of me and my family and he never responded to me like he doesnt want to be bothered. Maybe its just me. I have never really had the brothers and sister that always wanted. I miss them daily and I love them. I just wish I had a better relationship with them.
Next subject Life. I have been thinking about what I am going to do. I really love Jerry and I have been thinking about marring him and going off living on military post with him. This will be a start of a new life for both of us. The only thing will I be ok to survive with out seeing my mommy. I think so. I went away to school. lol But overall. I have to get settled some place after a year of him being gone. What will I do. I think of something. I know I will miss him alot..:-) But its all for a better living.
Last but not least Where I am Headed. Now i do want to go back to school some time soon. I want to major in nursing. I'm not sure when I would have the time to this but I will. I was thinking when I move away. I can get off to a fresh new start. Start saving and taking care of me and my family. Resting. and Relaxing. Such a breeze to think about that.I justed wanted to update my readers on what I been thinking and planing. Send me some comments on what ya think? Kisses
Our background and circumstances may have influenced who we are, but we are responsible for who we become...Electra Rome Parks
Angel B.
1 comment:
I certainly understand how you feel about your relationships regarding your brothers and sisters. I feel the same way. My father has 5 children. I only converse with one and she's 17 1/2. I had met her when Mia was about 6 months old. My older brother, who is about 28 years old, I see when I see. I would love to have a closer relationship with him. I feel like him and I have the closest connection. I grew up with him for a little while and I love him to death. My oldest sister, bitch, she's not really my blood sister, that one is complicated. Now the youngest. She just turned 6 years old. I have never met her. I hate the fact that we can't be close. I have nieces and nephews who will doesn't know I really exist. And that hurst a lot.
I think that your purpose in life is to continue on in life with all the goals that you have, and follow through with them. These goals will come easy, life isn't easy. You just need to trust that GOD will lead you on the right path.
As far as where you are headed, I have doubts also about moving to Peoria. I say if it's meant to move then it's going to happen. Even if you do move, it will readjusting..
love always.
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