She's Mine

I got some wonderful news and also some scary news. I went to my daughters school and Jerry took her in to her class and when he came out, I saw him talking himself. So of course when he got in the car I asked him why is was speaking to himself. He said "Well bay, You know Autumn is Ms. Janice (Autumns teacher) baby". I said "of course". So he goes on to tell me that she wants me to observe Autumn and put it on this paper. So you know I'm anxiously waiting for him to tell me for what. As he continue he goes to say " Ms. Janice wants to sit down and work with her and prepare her for next fall". I was looking at him in the disbelief look. Then he continued to tell me that she wanted her to start kindergarten in fall of "09". Remind you my baby is only three she won't be four until February, so that means she will be an early four year old starting school. I just felt so overwhelmed like they were trying to take my baby from me. I told him next they will be trying to move out my house by the age of six. Jerry just looked at me. Him being a father of course he doesn't see it my way. He sees it as it will be a great opportunity and which I do too. But. I also see it as she is my first baby and I want her all to myself. How selfish is that? I know she has to go.. but really this soon. I just love her so much. So I guess I will have to do my best to work with this teacher to help my child be a better person. My mom told me when you have your own child then you see why I protect you so much. I feel like it is my duty to keep her close to me, but I know she will venture off on her own. She is so independent already in which she reminds me of myself.


I never knew how much my heart could hold, UNTIL Autumn called me Mommy.

Angel B.